Your breath speeds up, your heart pounds. Goose bumps cover your arms, the hairs on your neck stand up. Nausea threatens to erupt and chills run up and down your body. ‘What ifs’ go speeding through your mind, ‘how to’s’ following on their heels.
How do we get over the fear? The paranoia? The what ifs? How do we stop worrying about the things that I won’t put into words, the Lord Voldemort of real life. The situations that shall not be named. The you know what’s.
I know as a mom the fear will never go away, it is my constant companion. I have another person to worry about, but she’s more than just another person. She is more than my heart and soul. The fear I feel when the ‘what ifs’ keep me awake at night is all consuming.
How do we live in the real world when its so scary?